After years of stress and pushing myself too hard, I woke up coming to the conclusion of what had been wrong all along, and why I have been struggling the way I have been.

I have to speak openly and honestly in admitting something I feel the need to speak publicly about.

I have been letting fear control me with assumptions and unclear judgment be treated as fact that has been hurting myself to accidentally hurting others. I have been holding onto pain that is now long since in the past now. Fear and assumptions have been controlling me for years, and it affected important elements with myself that made me trusting and reliable. I let it affect how I used to carry myself with confidence.

I have been stressing over way too many things that have not been a real issue to begin with, preventing me from taking action with what I want to do. I realized this has been affecting my passion project too, in why I have been struggling this year with it. I have been frustrated and impatient with myself while feeling intimidated with worries that prevented me from taking action and taking my time. I have been letting insecurities affect me with my drawing where it resulted in pressuring myself too much and not be able to draw very much--- at least it has been feeling that way as I don't feel joyin drawing which never happened before. Losing that fun when I have been actually doing pretty well for being a small artist than I give myself credit for.

I lost myself for years, but today I finally found me again. I will be handling things differently to be a better person for myself and to others. I hope to get a better flow with my project again.

All I needed, was to take a moment to see the full picture, to be patient with myself, and to open up with confronting matters that confused or conflicted with me.

I appreciate your reading and patience. <3